Lucy's world

Sunshine

2012-03-02T20:38:00.001+01:00

Not just outside - I think, in my soul too.

Illness is terrible

2012-02-17T08:10:00.003+01:00

I am ill again. I really hate it. I wanna be healthy. So.... I'm in really bad mood now. But it's snowing. The 1st nice thing in the day. But it'll be better. I hope. I know.

Eger

2012-02-12T14:03:00.000+01:00

I was in Eger at the weekend with my mom and godparents. Well, we went to there on Friday. When we arrived in the hotel that was about 6:00PM. So, we just checked the rooms; they were nice and clean and we had dinner. After dinner we walked a bit and bought wine (Eger is well known for its wine too). On Saturday we woke up early in the morning and visited the church and the castle of Eger (Eger is mainly well known for the castle). It was a wonderful trip. We arrived in the hotel early, about 3:00PM. We ate a lot and in the evening we decided to go to walk a bit. We said 'it'll be about 20 mins' but it became a hour. That was funny just that was cold and be visited almost all the city in the cold. After the we went to the hotel and we slept a lot. It was funny and good I really enjoyed it. Today we left the hotel before 10:00AM I think. We arrived home about after 11:00AM.

Dunno

2012-02-09T20:57:00.000+01:00

I am very busy these days and sick because of the full moon. I think I can't stand it anymore. I need someone to listen to me and try to be kind. Thanks for the only one who did it. I've got nightmares. And some problems in my little life but I don't want to speak about them. See you.

strange feelings

2012-01-30T15:21:00.000+01:00

It is time to write again. hey. I wrote here long time ago. Now I am healthy again. Great.

I feel that my friends don't really love me nowadays. It is a terrible feeling, mainly because of that I don't know why. Mabye it is not true, they are only my feelings. Maybe it is right. If that's right I don't know why. Why, why, why... I hate this question. I don't really want to know and I don't really care. I don't know the question "why" anymore. I don't want to be interested in the others anymore. I am not interested in the other people anymore.

Bye.

I am bored

2012-01-18T21:30:00.000+01:00

Hey guyz- I am just writing here again.... The reason is that I am bored. Well... I am at home for the 2nd week... I still have throatache but I'm going to go to school next week... What should I do? I just decorated my room all day. It became so nice..! By the way today I was walking on the street when a stranger man started to speak to me ''Hey you're pretty... You're beautifully nice" omg. I hate people like him. I didn't ask what his opinion is.

I just want you all to watch me.

Thank you for everything

2012-01-16T17:47:00.002+01:00

It can tell you everything...

2012-01-14T22:23:00.001+01:00

Great

2012-01-13T15:46:00.001+01:00

I was at school today to correct my english story with my teacher. I left school after the lessons. I ran after the bus but of course I could not reach that. So I was walking 50 mins in the rain and of course the weather was also windy.. Great. Now I feel that I am sicker than I was...

Trying hard to fight these tears

2012-01-13T08:50:00.001+01:00

Trying hard to fight these tears...

I'm crazy worried

Messing with my head this fear

I'm so sorry

You know you gotta get it out

I can't take it

That's what being friends about

I want to cry

I am still ill. With my throat? I have no throatache...! Ok, I cough... Anyway, I realized I always become ill at my birthday and after that a break down. Why?

I still have high fever. Nothing can help me. I feel f_cking bad.

I cannot go to Rinsaku's party... It is so awkward. But I stay at home because I don't want to make the party wrong... I don't want the others to see I feel bad and I don't want to make them ill.

To tell you the truth... I am depressed at the moment. May be it is because of my illness. Even though, I wanna cry now but I don't do that because crying makes me sicker.

I wrote my story, I continue/finished the book Sense and Sensibility... It is four pages long and there is a little text in the 5th page. I hope it will be good, but that is more than enough I will get two good marks from english...

I am sad. I feel that I am all alone now... and that I feel my best friend... How can she become an adult so fastly? Why does she leave me alone? Soon she will hate my like the other such people... Great. Nothing will be like in the past... You can say anything... It is true.

illness

2012-01-11T14:57:00.000+01:00

Yesterday evening I had high fever so I took some pill but they didn't help me. In the morning I still have fever so I visited the doctor who said I have to stay at home these days... I am so sad now. And she said I have to go to the hospital with my lung... because may be it's an allergy and it makes me ill with my lungs. Soo... I am very sad because I got pills and I drink a lot of water but I still have fever and my throat is from bad to worse... And I am afraid of that I cannot go to Rinsaku's birthday party because of my illness. So it's terrible, I really hate my health problems.

birthday

2012-01-09T18:28:00.000+01:00

I was born in 08.01.1994. It was a very bad day, everybody forgot my birthday at home. I was so sad because it was my 18th birthday so I was depressed and I cried. In the afternoon my friend called me and said we should go to walk. So, we went to walk on the streets. We walked next to our house when my friend went inside my house with me. I was so surprised when I saw there are all my relaitves, my godparenst and parents and two big cake on the table. It was a very big surprise party. They were very good because I was so surprised. I got a red scraf, a red, yellow and blue rose and a cute bear necklace and chocolates.

It was a very good party. I really enjoyed it.

Thank you.

done

2012-01-06T23:37:00.001+01:00

I lost interest in it.

I don't wanna my birthday...

Lamentable...

Even though the clock turns backwards the pain does not stop.

Now I'm thinking of my dead Grandpa, the lost memories, the deep scarrings that didn't heal yet for a long time.

...And Must I fight? Must I continue it? Do I really have to live here?

Will this pain stop or I will lose forever?

I would like to get back the pictures of my childhood. If I were a child again, what did I think?

I would like to get back those years.

I just wanna the attention of you ... don't leave me alone.

Watch me...

feelings

2011-12-25T22:05:00.002+01:00

I still have nightmares and I can't stand it anymore.

I always think that person who don't allowed to me.

Actually I'm still in love with you

2011-12-25T18:52:00.001+01:00

Hey people! Happy to see you again. So, this day was very good. I could relax and read. Oh, really, I wrote my new story to my hungarian blog. Omg, someday I will translate my stories and take them here but my english is too poor to do it now.

Well, it's still heartbreak. You know, I have to let someone go but I don't really wanna do that. I still say that love is a terrible thing. I go crazy cuz of that boy. I thought I'm in love... or what.

FRIENDS

2011-12-24T23:24:00.002+01:00

(F)ight for you. (R)espect you. (I)nvolve you. (E)ncourage you. (N)eed you. (D)eserve you. (S)ave you.

I'm trying....

2011-12-22T21:36:00.000+01:00

Well, people, I'm here again. I had no time to write I had a lot of things to do, I was ill, etc... I hope I don't have to continue it. Well, now here is the winter holiday by the way this holiday is f_cking busy!! but I don't really care I need relaxation and I'd like to write here and I'd like to write my new story too:)))

To tell you the truth I can say only that : heartbreak. I don't wanna say goodbye to my little little angel, I don't wanna break down anymore..

See you soon ppl!

hypocrite again

2011-12-19T18:32:00.000+01:00

I love when somebody tell me what I shouldn't do, after that this person do the same. Thank you. People are hypocrite...

2011-11-28T18:41:00.002+01:00

Hard health problems. Should go to doctor cuz very high bloodpressure said it's dangerous. haha.

They do it

2011-11-27T18:50:00.000+01:00

“No one ever told me I was pretty when I was a little girl. All little girls should be told they're pretty, even if they aren't.”

At home they just say to me that I'm ugly and fat.

Austria

2011-11-20T16:25:00.000+01:00

I couldn't sleep because I was so exciting because of the travelling. We had to meet at 5:15am, so I woke up early and I kept in touch with Rinsaku on mobile since we arrived to the spot. I met Rinsaku and Iva and we were sitting on the bus a lot because we had to wait a lot for the people who - of couse - late. Don't like such things. I just closed my eyes on the bus, I didn't sleep just relaxed but it was ok. An unknown girl was sitting next to me and we started to eat she ate chinese. Rinsaku started to speak with her and she was so lovely so I also speak with her. When we arrived Tulln (an der Donau) that girl named Alexa, Rinsaku, Iva, Zsanett, Norbi and I were in the same group and we watched the city together and tried to answer the questions because we got a quize about the city. Once I spoke in german but I was terrible. I can say a sentence or a question but I dont understand the answer so during the day I spoke in English. When we vitis a ship and we had to climb to the top of it I just overcame my fear for highness and the water.

After that we visited Madame Tussauds museum. That was fantastic. There were Will Smith too. He's my favourite.

In the evening we just walked in the streets in Wien and we bought hot red wine there. It was a mistake. Rinsaku and I don't really like alcohol so we don't usually drink. We felt dizzy a little and we were in a very very good mood. In the Mc Donalds I already didn't make sentences in English. I just speak in words but that was hard too. When we started to eat a man next to us asked us where do we from I said hungary and he started to asked us about money, because he wanted to go on a holiday in hungary. It was difficult to tell him.

On the way home Alexa, Rinsaku and I already had a great time together. We watched shounen ai animes in Alexa's mobile and we speak a lot about everything. When I arrived home the time was 11:00pm. I just ate some snacks, have a shower and slept. I woke up today at 10:00 but I'm still tired haha.

Sorry for my english people.

Pictures on twitter and facebook! bye!

I have no time to write

2011-11-16T17:05:00.002+01:00

Hi! Long time no see! Unfortunately I have no time to write cuz I have to learn a lot, I do the houseworks and I just do my job. On Saturday I go to Austria. Can't wait that. I promise, I'll write when I can. See you later.

Happy smile...

2011-11-13T20:38:00.000+01:00

I didn't write, forgive me... I'm just very busy. In these days I was in the other class. I was really afraid, what will happen. When I entered to the class there was my teacher, Adri. I say hello to her. And there was another women, I didn't know her, but I said my name and she too. She is Ági. She hugged me. After that, I asked her, where can I sit. She said on the left side there are a lot of empty place. Ok, I sat down. Then the others arrived. For example Dóri. She was in my class once so I knew her a little. She said she sit all alone so I can sit next to her. I was happy and I said yes. After that there was a man named Attila. He hugged me and said his name. He was very kind with me. He always said I should smile more and don't be sad. It was good for me, I became more strong I think. You know, I feel that, when I am sad or something, nobody says me these things in turn these things are really important to me. I don't feel that I am alone, just sometimes I'd like more attention if I'm sad haha.

I had lunch in the Burger King. On Saturday I was all alone because everybody went to the Chinese Restaurant. There was a kind and lovely young girl who asked what I would like. She was friendly but a little bit exciting, may be it was her first time. She forgot to give me spoon. I asked her to give me with a big smile, she was so embarrassment. I said don't worry. Today she was there again. She knew what I would like, and said the I have to wait for the poteto and can I wait here? I said yup I've got a lot of time. She asked how old am I and why am I in there. I said I'm 17 years old and I'm on a parapsychology course. She was surprised. When the potato was done she give me more from that but it's a secret haha.^^ She was really friendly and lovely.

After the course my parents and I went to my godparents. I was a little but angry cuz I said the girl I'll be back. But I don't worry, next month I'll be there again and may be we'll meet again.

I bough a picture which made by a soul-painter. it's really beautiful.

Sorry for my english people!

Illness

2011-11-10T12:03:00.000+01:00

I'm f_cking ill. I feel dizzy too. Great... The school is better than it. OMG.... I'm lying all day... and I'm off.

There are a lot of things to do

2011-11-09T18:30:00.000+01:00

I have to learn a lot. I'm very busy now, so I have no time to write here. I go... bye-bye. Promise I'll write a lot when I've time!^ω^

change my mind

2011-11-08T19:40:00.000+01:00

I had a very good day today! On my Society Knowledge lesson I had to speak about education. I was so nervous but I could do that and now I have a good mark. In english lesson I had two five for my homeworks. I am very happy. Now I should learn some information about London and my capital city, Budapest. Tomorrow I have an english lesson in the morning but I don't know what I should learn. I am sad because Adri is not in the school but I had a very-very nice day with my other friends; Danka, Haniko, Rinsaku and Iva the little chibitus. haha it was really good. I enjoyed, don't know why. And I hanged out with Hara. That girl is very funny, love her.
Yup, 'change my mind' ... you know for about one year I always think about that I should become a teacher... When I dreamed about it I laughed and tried to forget that, 'no! no way! I wanna be a doctor, not a teacher haha' but on Sunday I talked with my Master and She asked me about it... and I could tell her that... she was the first who know that... My mind were changing.... I wanna be a teacher... I wanna travel... Know language... Don't want to stay here! Yup of course I'll be a doctor too... but on an other way...

That's all for today. Sorry for my english. I do my best in the school, I learn english hard... I think I'll be better soon! See you tomorrow people! Lucy says goodbye.

First day at school

2011-11-07T17:05:00.000+01:00

omg it was my first day at school and I really don't enjoyed that! I wanna more autumn holiday! And it's monday. it's more than enough! haha! I still feel stick...omg I wanna be healthy again! My biology test is very good. I am happy. omg I'm not fine and tired and I have to learn a lot! So a go! See you tomorrow people!! Thank you for check my blog!!^^

good day

2011-11-06T16:19:00.001+01:00

Today I was with my parents and their friends. I bought my clothes for the school-leaving students' party. It is a wonderful dress!! And I bought new shoes (black) and a ring! They're beautiful! I am very tired now! I wanna sleep. I should learn... I asked Irén and Feri to be my godparents. They were very happy! I am happy too! I still miss my friend but today two friends write me so I am very happy. I am glad because there a lot of people on Twitter too who wanna be my friend! I am happy and I waitin' for my new friends' e-mail! I don't wanna go to school tomorrow haha! I am hungry now and tired so I go. Tomorrow I'll write! bye!!^^

pain

2011-11-05T17:31:00.000+01:00

Hi there. Aww this day was really painful... I really miss my friends! My soul hurts!(haha what a funny sentence was that). I went to bed after midgnight... And I woke up at 3 am... I am really tired. In the morning I went to the post office and I did the shopping. It was very-very long. Today I can eat. I am happy. I did the household chorses. I didn't learn anything yet. I listen to music all day. I have pictures about my cats and I will decorate my room again (use these pictures) and finally I can give the posters to my friend, Danka. Tomorrow will be a really tiring day. I am going to go to Asia Center to buy my clothes to the 4th-year students' party. After that I will help to a person. Now I'm drinking delicious tea. I drink it all day. I don't know what I want, I don't know who am I. Nobody knows who I really am... I just want freedom... and life... and love... and family... and friends... and I wanna that my dreams come true..!

Oh people.! Call me or E-mail me because I go crazy haha xd

I'm late but here

2011-11-04T12:23:00.000+01:00

Tomorrow I didn't write. Excuse me. To tell you the truth I just do the houseworks, I play in the computer and I'm ill. Sometimes I feell better myself after that I feel sick again. I don't want to go to the doctor but may be finally I have to go. That's all.

Hi

2011-11-03T08:26:00.002+01:00

It will be a very good day but there are a lot of household chorses to do. Ok, I woke up early in the morning I will try to be fast.

So-so

2011-11-02T21:33:00.000+01:00

I'm fine. It was a good day I was speaking a lot with my friends. I got an e-mail too and I am so happy!! I'd like to speak with them more!! In the afternoon I was hurt again. I'm the bad and the soulless again... Thank you... I was hurt by someone who close to me. omg I do my best all the time.. oh, I don't really care. It's pointless.
Haha, in the evening I got an e-mail! I was very happy! And I'm speaking with my aunt at the moment. I missed her. I am happy. It was a good day.

Morning!~

2011-11-02T07:39:00.000+01:00

Well, I just woke up. Don't know why, I went to sleep very late last night so I didn't get a lot of sleep last night. But it's OK, I feel better myself! What is more, I am fine!! Yesterday I tried to eat and drink a lot and I relax a lot and it was very useful you know!! I'm happy, I feel better myself, I'm OK. At the moment I'm drinking my morning coffee! May be I shouldn't do that, because yesterday my stomach was bad... But... And I still don't wanna have breakfast! I'm not hungry. I'll solve my problem!

^ω^

2011-11-01T21:04:00.002+01:00

Today everybody is fuckin' lovely!!

Pfff

2011-11-01T17:36:00.002+01:00

I'm ill. Great! It's my stomach again! Well, I have to go now! Bye!

Can't believe it!

2011-11-01T08:40:00.000+01:00

omg, my parents really don't understand me! My father knows NOTHING about me! He doesn't know what is my school name and what I learn... But it's already pointless. But a few weeks ago he aksed me what I learn. I said I learn biology and english hard and I have plus lessons. Omg, it was my biggest mistake ever. He asked why am I do that, I should learn informatics and use it to search a job. He thinks I am stupid cuz I wanna be a doctor. omg. Don't understand him! And today in the morning he started to talk it again! Can't stand it! Nothing is good enough I think!!

Happiness

2011-10-31T21:22:00.000+01:00

I had a very good day today! My family and I were in cemetery and the grave is already done! Tomorrow we're going to go to the cemetery in this town! On foot... In the evening... It'll be beautiful!

Anyway, I have a new friend from Japan! I am very happy! They are very kind! Love them! I hope I'll have more friends from all over the world!

And I miss my little cat, Buborék very much!

I want to change my mind

2011-10-31T09:58:00.000+01:00

You know... the last two weeks were terrible for me! I didn't sleep and finally I didn't eat. omg. Get depressed. But I don't want to be like that!! So I try to be myself and try to do something useful. I think the first thing should be that: I should eat something. I should have breakfast but to tell you the truth I don't really want that. But coffee is OK. Hehheee~ Everything is OK today. A said last night that: When I wake up I'll forget every bad things what happened to me! And that's right, I don't think of these things and I don't feel blue now! Love my life and don't want to make it terrible if it's almost good. Right?

I'm just honest

2011-10-30T21:16:00.000+01:00

omg, I'm so happy because I leave that boy! He is a bastard. Sorry for the word, but I hate the people like him. Don't like when somebody is false and silly. Ok, that's all.

OMG

2011-10-30T18:31:00.000+01:00

I don't understand why are people usually such stupid. If you've got a problem please tell me that and don't look me fool. Thank you, girl!

Ok, it was terrible but I'll be alive

2011-10-30T17:28:00.000+01:00

So, today my relative took my little cat, Buborék. Oh, I am so sad, I miss my cat very much! But... I know that he will be in a good place. They have a very big house and there is a little girl who was very happy to see my cat, so I try to relax. Miss him but I know he is or will be very happy there! Anyway, there is an other cat who needs a new home. Oh my God. I don't wanna cry again. I just listen to music and decorate my room. My room is very nice now. LOL. Ok, it's enough I think. Lucy says goodbye.

It's my first time!:D

2011-10-30T17:01:00.000+01:00

Hi there! I am Lucy and this is my first blog! I really want to write here a lot of things but I haven't got enough time, and to tell you the truth my english is not the best! I am from Hungary and I'm just learning the language. I have got a hungarian blog too: www.mimiko-weblapja.gportal.hu . On this blog there are more thing than here. You know I am very active on Internet. I want to have friends from all over the world! You can find me on Twitter, my name is: Lucy sama! Follow me please! I really want to speak with you and keep in touch! Now I go, I promise I'll write! Read me! Bye!